Thoughts from Thursday's Child

Thursday's Child has far to go

Thursday is on my mind ….

Thursday

It’s not quite the weekend yet but we are well into the week by the time we realise it’s Thursday.

Do you feel like you live in a Thursday mindset? You’ve come a long way in your life but you still have a way to go to reach your goal, your dream, your ‘ideal’ life?

I recently completed an undergraduate course in jouralism. It was a steep learning curve for me to do something for myself while juggling the balls of marriage, parenthood, work and life.

Now comes the evolution of Thursday’s Child where I hope you will help me develop my writing skills. I want to say what I mean, mean what I say, and share it with others, offering encouragement, invite discussion and change my world, one word, one thought at a time.

My heart is still beating – can you hear it?

 

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Moving on …..

What started out as a challenge for 31 days flowed and grew – now the momentum has ebbed and waned.

Where do we go from here?

My heart is still beating.

My heart still wants to be heard.

I am still listening to my heart.

Will you continue the journey with me?

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A beating heart that lives …

These 31 days of a beating heart became more than a writing challenge. It became a focus on what my heart is saying with each and every beat, being purposeful in listening to my heart and taking action to live a life with each heartbeat.

Moving forward, I am going to Live my List.

What is my List? It is things I want to accomplish, change, make real in my life as my heart beats with a purpose. Lots of people plan their list as a goal to achieve before they die – place to travel to, adventures and challenges to undertake, dreams to fulfil.

Who inspired me to consider to “Live your List” ? Most people would say the movie with Morgan Freeman and Jack Nicholson but I haven’t seen it yet. (Maybe I should put it on my bucket list – ha, ha!)

No, it was Ryan Eller and Jerrod Murr with their #LYL – Live your List podcasts https://itunes.apple.com/au/podcast/the-live-your-list-show/id829161251?mt=2 that challenged me to live an intentional life, to encourage others and to make a difference.

How can I stay the same when I know there is so much more out there that I want to do, see, be, accomplish, share, embrace, live and love?

So, here’s the start of my list. It’s a work in progress and a challenge I will daily need to take up if I am to keep listening to my beating heart. The list is in order of when I thought of what I wanted to do, not in the order I am going to accomplish them which makes it all the more exciting, I think.

Here goes …

1. Complete my children’s photo albums.

2. Spend more time at the beach with sand between my toes, the sun on my face and listening to the waves.

3. Start up my card writing business.

4. Exercise for 30 minutes every day so I can get my heart to its best health and stop taking the medications.

5. Host a Neighbour’s Table regularly in my backyard.

6. Learn to sing, enough to be able to perform one song well in public.

7. Be a successful writer whatever form that writing takes.

8. Learn to say ‘no’ when I need to say ‘no’.

9. Hold a Moonlighters silver service dinner with my friends in the middle of a roundabout like I planned when I was in my early 20’s.

10. Visit Russia and Hungary.

11. Visit Egypt and Ethiopia.

12. Finish tracing my family tree.

13. See a movie being filmed on a ‘real’ movie set.

14.

I’ve had to stop writing on this list, I am starting to cry.  There are things my heart is telling me it wants to do but fear is holding me back from even considering putting them on a list. I don’t know if the pounding of my heart is for the desire  in my heart or the fear that stops me from trying to accomplish those things.

How would you write YOUR list?

What would you include?

And what would you leave off?

I want to live with my heart.

 

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Writing on my heart – with a chisel

Sometimes my heart feels hard and cold. If it stays that way it could protect me from the hurt and the pain….. but it doesn’t.

I can’t live with a heart of stone. It weighs heavily on my chest, making it hard for me to breathe, making it hard for me to speak, making it hard for me to move, making it hard for me to love, making it hard for me to live.

Has your heart felt heavy like that? My heart has.

I’ve been overwhelmed with life and adult responsibilities, pained by the words and actions of others, struggling to keep my head above water, hardening my heart to the plight of those around me while I try to deny my own problems.

How do you write on a heart of stone? The first thing I think of is with  a hammer and chisel (ala Fred Flintstone).

What should I chisel on my heart of stone? Words of truth, affirmation, encouragement, peace and strength for the moment.

Lies, words of criticism and other negative thoughts need to be removed. The most permanent way to delete these words is by breaking the stone that has become your heart.

How do you change a heart of stone?

Allow God to write on your heart.

 

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Writing on my heart … in pen

Psalm 40:8 “I take joy in doing your will, my God, for your instructions are written on my heart.”

I love writing with pen and paper. Something about letting thoughts flow onto a page rather than a computer screen makes me feel connected to the words.

And birthday cards – few people post cards these days because you can send an all singing, all dancing, lights flashing card in an email.

Post-it notes have a special place in our family. I leave messages on the bathroom mirror, in lunch boxes and on the fridge, flourishing my black pen with flair and style.

At least, I did until the children commented that they couldn’t read my writing! Cursive is no longer a style of writing they are taught in school…huh???

With the speed and immediacy of social media and text messages, are we missing out on the intimacy of a handwritten note? And where does that leave my black pen?

Love letters, birthday greetings, my diary, advice to my child, encouragement for a friend, shopping and to-do lists – these flow from my pen onto greeting cards, notepaper, blue lined journals, the back of envelopes.

The permanency of words written with a pen on paper speak to my heart, my mind and my spirit, helping me recall special memories of loved ones, shared celebrations, memorable family gatherings. They don’t fade with time, I can re-read them often and share them with others.

I have kept countless cards and letters sent to me from grandparents, parents and friends over the years as a record of their writing, personal messages that touch my heart and bring me joy.

What joy has been written on your heart in pen? Are you sharing special moments and memories with others that leave an imprint on their hearts?

Allow God to write His instructions on your heart.

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Writing on my heart … in pencil

Psalm 40:8 “I take joy in doing your will, my God, for your instructions are written on my heart.”

I love doing puzzles like cryptic crosswords, regular crosswords, word searches and Sudoku.

My 12-year-old son asked to do some of my Sudoku puzzles the other day but decided he needed to complete them in pencil in case he made a mistake.

This may not come as a revelation to many people but he surprised me with his logic. Up until that point I have always done my puzzles with a pen. I hadn’t given any thought to what I would do if I’d made a mistake.

When you write in pencil it is easy to rub it out, erase the mistake.

Have you ever made a mistake you wish you could erase?

Of course not! I’m the only one who would ever want to do that …lol!

What is written on your heart that you wish you could erase?

Harsh words, lies, bitterness – you can erase these.

Forgive the one who wrote on your heart with that hurtful pencil.

Clean the slate.

Erase those words from your heart.

Make room for new words to be written there – words of joy, peace, contentment.

Allow God to write on your heart.

 

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God will give you the desires of your heart …

Psalm 37:4 New International Version (NIV)

4 Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

I used to take this verse to mean that God would give me what I wished for. Very simple, very straight forward, very selfish. I shouldn’t have been surprised that it didn’t come true.

My selfish heart has done a re-think recently and I realised it’s a verse about God and not about ‘me’,

GOD will GIVE me the DESIRES of my heart.

God doesn’t give me what I WANT – He gives me the DESIRE in the first place.

A desire to serve others, a desire to serve Him, a desire to see justice upheld, a desire to cook, a desire to write, a desire to teach, (you get the idea …)

We each have a purpose and a plan for our lives but it may take us a lifetime to discover where that desire (or passion) lies.

Don’t wait that long …..

He will give you the desires of your heart, if you are looking for a plan and a purpose for your life. He’s not in the business of ‘granting wishes’ but of seeing us live a full life with hope, peace, joy and love. We each have a purpose and a plan for our lives but it may take us a lifetime to discover where that desire (or passion) lies.

I will see with my heart – will you join me?

 

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A fearful heart

Fear takes hold of my heart and stops me from living.

Do you ever feel that way?

I’ve been afraid of what others might think.

I’ve been afraid of what others would say.

I’ve been afraid of how others will react.

Fear can make me stop, stand still, never start.

And then I’m afraid of what I will think, of what I will say, of how I will react if I my heart continues to live a life of hesitation, fear and regret.

Jon Acuff’s book START and a group called 30 Days of Hustle helped me to define the passion in my heart, START to overcome the fear, START to dare to dream, START to dare to live a life with purpose, START to dare to move forward.

I am slowly overcoming the fears that I have lived with for so long.

I DARE you to START.

I will see with my heart.

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A wounded heart

“The heart is the only broken instrument that still works”.

I don’t know where I first read that quote but I memorised it. It was a salve when my heart was broken and brought a hope that I would recover from the pain.

I did recover and went on to love again even though my heart bears the scars.

Medical miracles can stop a heart beat or relax a body to stop it from feeling pain but what can we do when our hearts feel beyond repair? Hearts can be broken or wounded by thoughtless words, misunderstood expressions, silence. Few hearts remain unscathed.

You can see their hearts, the pain, the grief, the hurt, the rejection. It all hurts. When you hear of a heart that bleeds, you don’t always see it happening with your eyes but you can see it with your own heart.

These wounds can take a long time to heal but we keep on loving others while we wait. That’s just the way it goes.

Is there anything that can be done to mend a wounded heart?  There is no special cream or even a band-aid you can use on a broken heart.

Again, a quote I memorised “Time heals all wounds” is probably the truth of the situation but what I can do, I will do. There are so many people needing a gentle word, a smile, a friendly ear to listen or a heart to feel what they are feeling.

I will see with my heart.

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Opening my wallet with my heart

I dream of winning the Lotto. Unfortunately, I don’t buy tickets so my chances are very slim.

I dream about what I would do with the money – how I would spend it, what I would spend it on, who I could help out.

What would you do? Think about it, listen to your heart. How much of it would you REALLY give away?

When I am down to the last $2-00 in my wallet before pay day, I can thrown it in a hat for a busker without thinking twice. After all, it’s only $2, right?

BUT …

Would I give him a $200 tip if I’d just won $2 million? Why would I hesitate? What would make me give money away without thinking about it?

A random act of kindness I read about was taping dollar bills on vending machines, phone boxes or even leaving them on the shelves in supermarkets for others to find. That actually sounds like it would be fun and is something my children and I would enjoy. I could do it with $20 but would I do it with $2000?

Why is it harder to give money away when you have more than you need but those who can afford little are willing to give from their heart?

Where do you sit / stand with giving away money? Do you have your own personal set of guidelines of who you’ll give to and why you give?

2 Corinthians 9 v 7 (NIV) says “Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.”

I will give with my heart.

 

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